Singin'

Good lord, tonight I was lookin' through some more of my old stuff and I found a copy of a song that I used to sing while I was busking. But gosh, my whole heart sings, it is a really good song that I had forgotten. What they said!!!

Fragrant

Then I obeyed and had a shower this afternoon

But I forgot to put on my antiperspirant, so perhaps not so fragrant

AND

My PC started misbehaving with my "message rules". Instead of asking for help I waited, thought about it some more changed summat, saw the result, changed it further and therefore fixed it all by myself

Lord, lumme

Well after yesterday and the day before's excitement today feels a bit..... relaxing I s'pose.

Or it might be seen as dull, I am not sure

More business

And Julia came back over tonight. I felt a bit strange being polite but perhaps that is what the future may hold. Anyway she came with her brother who has turned his life right around in the past seven years

Toby

And Toby came here. We talked a lot of sense, a lot more than we would normally talk, and further made friends again. I love him and he loves me

And he is temporarily moving away

Julia phoned

I looked at my phone, thought "Mmmm" but answered anyway. First of all Julia asked if she and her brother, Robert, can come over tonight, I said "Yes please", then she said I have to do some shopping later, can I drop Toby off with you so you can see him before he goes to Julies, I shouted "YES" to that, so I am no awaiting.....

Weekend

Well, it is now Saturday, which is different from every other day how?? Now I am trying to get my head round the meeting yesterday but........

Jasus

Well I had a Care Review meeting today. First of all I went out with my Dad and sister shopping (to distract me) then all kinds of important people came to see me. All in all I think it went well, I was polite, they talked as if I mattered etc. First thing on my printed out agenda was just "Toby" and his social worker talked. Afterwards I said that I felt the need to crawl across the floor and kiss her feet. She arranged that when Toby comes back he will come and see me first, before "going home" which is why I nearly cried. After that the rest of the meeting felt really light and easy, I agreed to do more "getting better" stuff generally. But my son is so important and he loves me more than anyone

Morning

So to distract me my Dad and sister took me out this morning, we went shopping and got more shelves for the cupboard and a charger to plug in my lights. Here we are back, they are busy putting stuff together and I am getting in a fuss over this meeting later

No I'm not scared....

OK, I am, just a bit. Loadsa folk are coming here for my Care Review tomorrow, I can't say "I have no need for care" because then they will say "Well we don't need to pay you then".....

Dad and Sis

Then this evening my Dad and big Sister arrived. They are staying here tomorrow for my Care Review so..........

Morning

This morning I have been waiting for the wheelchair fixer man and awaiting this evenings visit from my sister and my dad

Dull

After such an exciting morning I have had nowt to do this afternoon. Tra la la. So being bored I made a couple of important to me web-pages, the first talking about writing the date and then one on a Mini that I had never seen before

Alone

And this morning I managed this "shopping alone" thing again, taxi into town, haircut, shopping in Aardvark, shopping in the market for an adapter then came home. All by myself!!!

And gosh but the women in Aardvark were very helpful as I couldn't carry my basket and walk at the same time, and I had to leave my 'chair in the street outside

Freya

And then this afternoon Freya came in for a visit. She had a strange visit, she was pleased to be here but while she was here I read some more from my pile of stuff, some of which were notes from Freya's mum saying how she would love me forever etc

And I have finished now, I no longer have anything from the past sitting on my desk or the seat next to it

Wow

So this morning I asked when the wheel-chair fixer was coming, they asked and said "Any time today" so I thought "No, can't wait, got to shop and be back before Freya comes". So..... so I phoned a taxi and took myself, by myself, to the supermarket. Then, after I came back the wheelchair fixer came here and tightened my brakes. But it was the first time in over 7 years I have been trusted to shop alone. I thought "No, not Tesco as it is too big" but I went to Morrison's instead and could cope

Book

Good lord. Well I have just started reading the first bbook I have read in over 7 years. It is hard work, there seems to be a lack of continuity between the end of 1 line and the beginning of the next, but I can just about manage. And it has gotta be said, the Introduction to the current edition of The Colour Purple is fu*king excellent. I have read some more, her letters to god and I am impressed. And she seems to be a heathen so far so I am relaxed too

Blinkin' Flip

So this afternoon I asked a MOS to help me with sorting out some paperwork that was piled up on the chair. Firstly I was able to throw away some shit from the court 12 years ago. Then I was able to put together some "stuff to be kept". THEN I started looking through "Neil's blue book of stuff". And "Wow". It is very good, contains poems by me, Julia, both of us, other people and loads of "my thoughts" from way back then. Just "Wow" again.I tried scanning it, most of which looked shit but one worked, at last

And a few more now...

Fixer

And someone came to see me this morning with a note saying "Wheelchair fixer off sick, another person is coming tomorrow" so......