I am struggling a bit with just feeling sick of being as fscked as I am now. Yes, I was more fscked in the past but I still struggle with being this fscked now. I had an enormous life changing accident which wasn't my fault and
did change my life. I used to be a lazy(ish) do nothing chap. That has changed. Because it is a struggle to get out of my bed in the fscking morning. It is a struggle to walk to the loo, to the kitchen etc.
And I need to have someone else rub my cream in every day etc. Et-fscking-cetera
AND I "have to have" someone supervise me cooking and eating....