Stuck

So at 11.15AM today I thought "Nah, too hard" and went and got my walking stick (not my chair) from the bedroom

I won't use it much but it helps with my fear

And since I went and got it it has been sitting leaning against the settee, out of reach but it makes my fear more manageable

And I didn't use it again this time but I didn't sit in my wheelchair until 15.30PM

Up

8.45 this morning, neither late or early..... Nowt on today but I might have a lift to a Folk Club tonight

And yes, apparently I do......

And Ruth just txtd me, she is going out to play too. C her later

And she did even tho it was too busy to speak to her etc I managed to return the thingy off my cupboard door

Drink

And I had 2 cans of beer tonight, earlier but by god I want the 3rd and 4th and 5th etc tins now but as I am outa practice I won't have them tonight

Tomorrow

So today since I got back I have been in my wheelchair but tomorrow I will be walking into make breakfast and see how it goes from there

Wonky toes

And if you look at the picture of me walking bare foot you can see how the toes on my right foot are all wrinkled, curled up

Alex

And Alex, my ex neighbor who works over the road txted me today with an invite to his house on Saturday as his son will be 16!! I have said "Yes" but we will have to make arrangements

Off in a bit

I am off in a bit to Physiotherapy at PDH

And WOW today I walked up and down with bare feet, no splint on or extra sole

THIS IS IMPORTANT!!!

HHGTTG

I finished the first book I have read in 7 years tonight

Visitor

And that Sam fella phoned me and he is coming here later this afternoon

Good lord, yes he came here and pissed about. Again I feel that I am meeting him for the first time...

Broken

I went to make myself a pot of coffee and my coffee maker fell apart. I thought "Sh*t" but with some exploration I was able to put it back together while standing in the kitchen!!

AM

9.15 this morning, a proper lie in

Check

And I have just spoken to Freya and I was correct, she said she was coming a day early this week (today) as she is going to a camp tomorrow.

Camp ~ but good lord, she must be beginning to get a life of her own as a grownup..... I think I met Julia on a camp originally

Gosh, Freya was here, we had quality time again, I am restarting to make friends

Shop

So in a bit I am off to (More Reason To Shop At) Morrisons to get my weeks shopping, I have written a list and put it in my pocket

And not on the list was "soup" but I bought a can anyway on impulse but good lord, I can't recall eating any soup in the years since my accident, but it was delicious today

Less lie in

Awww 7.00 this morning......

4pm

And I didn't sit in my wheelchair until after 4 o'clock this afternoon, so all day I have been walking with no stick

Dead

And I only found out today that Kirsty MacColl died a terribly accidental death in 2000

And...

And I heard a concept on the radio today that I was unaware of. Can someone tell me more about them?

Fsck it

So every time I stand up and walk I am thinking "Shit, it's too hard." but fsck it, I don't need to do it, I can be a cripple forever. Or I can continue this relearning process until it becomes easier

No, no, no

They tried to make me go to Rehab, but I said "No, no, no"

Right hand

And I am using my right hand to help me type today and it is working. QWERTY are left handed and UIOP etc are my right hand and it isn't a great deal slower, but it still f**king hurts