Lordy I am torn. So Denyse is coming to see me in a bit and I am trying to think of what to say to her. (I suspect there is *no* point with "Will you marry me?") But it's like I am so dissatisfied with many parts of my life but they are parts that were so "off the beat" that I couldn't have even considered it a while ago. As I am SO MUCH BETTER now I shouldn't complain about issues, just be glad that I can even think now.
Well she came, and Timmy came in too and we had a conference. It was OK, we talked about my issues etc.
BUT she still wouldn't marry me